Holistically Speaking

There sure is a lot going on in the world lately. Everyone has an opinion on all sorts of stuff and they state it loud, and proud, and bold. I think normally I would join them, but here is the thing: I'm sick. I don't feel well. I am having a hard time adjusting to a new lifestyle and my body is fighting me. The diet, the medicine, the blood testing, the doctors, the tests, the doctors, the tests, the tests, and then I get a bill...it wears me down.


Diabetes isn't the worst disease I could have, but it's certainly enough of a challenge for me. I am grateful for the opportunity though. SO grateful. If nothing else it has kept me focused on what is important to me.


While the good and the bad have swirled all around me in an explosion of national emotion and sensationalism I have felt isolated in a hushed calm. While the whole world has gone crazy with joy or outrage my baby has been learning to crawl. My daughters practice cartwheels and draw. My sons grow and sing as they go. My wife gets her hair done and it makes her smile. That's my rainbow. That's my flag. That's my Constitution.


Maybe the world is ending. Maybe the world is on the edge of a better tomorrow. Most likely the world is simply lost in a profound bout of melodrama. I don't really know. I'm dealing with needles and nausea. My family makes me feel better. That's what I know.


We think life is subject to the issues we grapple with but life has always been sweeter and deeper than the battles we fight. Those battles are drops of our sweat next to the enormous current that we drift in. If they move us, it is because they touch on what is alive for us. If they rattle us, it is because they echo the reality of what we feel that we are. They are still drops though. We should remember that. They barely make a ripple in the river.


It can't be helped you know. We all come. We all go. We all drift on borne up inexorably by the hours and the days. Life is greater than us. Life is nothing without us- the hilarious and yet splendid juxtaposition of our selves onto the universe at large.